Monday, September 26, 2016

trying to catch up

This place here is for me to remember memories. I like to look back and see all the things we have done the past five years that I have been writing on this blog and it makes me happy.  Recently, I have been doing a crappy job keeping up. I am still not used to having two kiddos to look after. I feel like I don't even have one minute to spare to sit down and do anything that I really want to do. Mike just got home from Morocco so we are a doing a little readjustment back to the "normal" life we have right now. Charlie is having a really hard time being put down and that is the hardest part of my day, which is most of my day. I am pretty much living with one arm. I seriously need to break out my Ergo and start baby wearing inside the house. I just don't like that I cant put his legs out comfortably yet so I don't like him being in it for a extended period of time.  Anyways, let me find a little brain power to remember all of the things that we have been up to so I can have it written down.

We went to summer fest. 
It is a festival in a small town that has a bunch of music. They had bounce houses for the kids but I still think Emma is a little too little to go in those with the big kids. We have tried and it is really scary.  She really enjoyed just dancing here though so that's what we did. 

 Em got a real bike! 
She is awesome at it! 
Only one crash so far too! 
 Of course we have been spending quite a bit getting outside. 
More park 
 And even more 
 We spent time at sports fest. 
Its a couple days of volleyball, jiu jitsu, jet ski races and a 5k. We mainly went for the jet ski stuff. I really wanted to see the tricks that they do, but they were running late and it was super hot so we decided to leave after watching a good amount of the racing. 
It makes me want a new toy! 

Charlie went on his first hike. 
Devils Tea Table 
Slept the whole time.
 Emma and her princess dresses. 
She has to put one on every single day. 
 Obsessed with painting her face. 
 This day I let her paint mine. 

Splash park fun
 Play times 
 More park 
 Birthday party with a lantern release. 
 Charlies first birthday party too. 
 Em and I went to Rock the Park. We spent some girl time and it was great. We listened to music, got her arm painted and enjoyed a shaved ice. 
We went to the cupcake festival. 
It was tiny. We didn't stay long. 

Hansom boy

Well, that's that.
I feel like this isn't everything. 
I might be back for round two but as for now I cant think anymore. 

Friday, September 9, 2016

The First Month

I survived the first month since being a mother of two. I am not going to lie, it was difficult! 
It still is. 
Being outnumbered is the hardest of it all. 
I don't have enough hands, I don't have enough sleep, and I don't always have enough patience.  
I finally was able to wash my kitchen floor today. That was a milestone. Its been a month. I'm embarrassed to say how long its been, but it is true. I am able to sweep everyday, but wash was out of the question. My house is still a work in progress. The carpets are vacuumed but forget about it being dusted. I have clean clothes in 5 laundry baskets just sitting in my bedroom waiting to be put away, and two baskets waiting to be washed.  I keep trying to keep in mind this saying but I am not going to lie, I feel better when I have a clean home. 
Charlie has been having issues sleeping. Of course he is a baby and is suppose to not sleep through the night. I just don't remember Emma being so fussy about it. I try to put him to sleep a little later in the night hoping that he will stay asleep so I have a little time to rest. He usually wakes up around 12, another at 2, ant then around 4 and he is wide awake after that! I usually take him down stairs so I don't wake Mike while I try to put him back to sleep. Once I finally do get him back to sleep about 2 hours later, that is the time when Emma usually wakes up. 
I sigh, and try to find some energy somewhere. 
I really need to start drinking coffee.
Yes, I am one of the 5% of the world that thinks coffee is gross. 

Now I feel terrible about saying this, and I of course love her to death already, but I am not sure why Mike and I thought it was a good idea to get a high energy rescue puppy 2 weeks before Charlie was due to be born. She is a work in progress...and I am going to put that work in, but she is crazy! She is so sweet and great with Emma, but she needs a lot of attention so I do feel like she is another one of the kids. She is constantly in my face, on my lap or there is a ball at my feet with hot breath and a wet nose touching me. Not to mention, she is a licker. I have never had a dog that liked to lick so I never knew how annoying it is. I try to remember she is giving kisses but com-on! Enough! 

I'm not sure if anyone else has a problem finding babysitters but that is one thing that I absolutely suck at. My parents never had a babysitter for my sister and I so I never really had experience with one. I have no idea where to even start. I have asked a few friends who they use but most of them have family near by and they usually watch the kids. Babysitters are scary to me. I am putting my kids life in their hands. That's the way I look at it. Mike and I have a nonexistent "relationship" at the moment. He goes to work, comes home, I have dinner cooking, we put the kids to bed, and stay up for about a hour longer, and go to bed. Every night is on repeat. We haven't had a date night in forever. I have looked at a couple times to maybe find someone there, but like I said, it is just really scary to me...especially with a new born now. 

I wanna say this past week has been so much better with Emma getting used to her new brother. She still does not want to hold him but she will give him lots of kisses and hugs now. In the beginning, there was a lot of crying and whining. Granted there is still a good amount of that but it seems to be dying off a little. On the topic of Emma, recently I have noticed that she is extremely detailed about certain things. I don't want to say OCD, but that's what I would explain it as. Example- The light was on because it was nighttime playing with a puzzle, the next day if we play with the same puzzle but it is daylight and the blinds are open the light still needs to be on or there is a huge crying fit. 
Things like that.  She is such a sassy little girl so I'm not sure if she just likes to be in charge.

You have no idea how many times I have been pee or pooped on this past month. I can not for the life of me get the hang of changing a boys diaper yet. I always think he doesn't have to go mid way through the change and then he surprises me. I do a TON of laundry. 

I am going to go back to his sleeping arrangements. 
You will have to excuse my "all over the placeness" because that is how my brain is operating right now. 
I been having a hard time with where Charlie has been sleeping. Currently I have 2 bassinets in my room next to my bed. One that lays him totally flat and another that has a incline on it. I had Emma in the incline and she seemed to like it while she slept in our room. I wanna say she was with us for the first at least 6 months. Charlie on the other had hates both of them. Or at least hates it in our room. The past 3 nights he has slept in his own room in his own crib and seems to be doing better. Cami tends to be really loud especially with hard wood floors when she jumps on and off of our bed. Mike is also quite loud with his "breathing" so I think he was woken up a lot by them. I am still working on a way for him to be more comfortable though. He seems to want a little incline so it has been tough finding something that I can prop him up on. I know the real way he would be totally comfortable would be on his belly. He sleeps great when he is on me laying face down. 

So with all that, I am sure I am missing a ton of things that I wanted to write down but it is now 11:30 pm and I am beat. 
I will leave with a update on the newest member because we went to the doctors today for his one month check up. 
He weights 9 lbs 12 oz 
Exactly 2 pounds more then his birth weight. 
He is in the 50% for his head size, length and weight. 
Emma is always in like the 10th% so a lot different already. 
We talked about him maybe having a little reflux. I don't really no much about it so I will have to do a little research still.  He does tend to get stiff and arch his back a little but there is hardly any spitting up. I'm going to keep an eye on it this month and see if it gets any better. I really don't want him to be on any meds if I can help it. 
Other then all that, we are so in love with him. He is such a calm little guy so it is nice to just sit and relax with him. Hopefully he can rub off a little on Emma and not the other way around. 

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Picture Overload

I need to catch up on all the photos of our new little guy from the past 2 weeks so this is going to be a picture overload post. 

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Our Baby Boy is Here

I had my weekly doctors appointment on Monday the 8th. She checked me and let me know I was only 3cm dilated. The week before that I was 2 1/2cm so not much had changed. I was now 40 weeks and 4 days so I felt more then ready for this little guy. The doctor asked what I was thinking and I let out a big "lets induce!"
I really never wanted it to come to this but there were certain things that were needing to speed up the process of this baby coming. The Dr. told me that she had an opening tomorrow (Tues). 
OK, that sounds good, I told her! 
I got to the hospital around 4:30 am Tuesday morning. 
They hooked me up to all the lovely things that come with being in the hospital...all the needles and such. Being Group B positive I started the first bag of Penicillin.
Let me just point out what I think is the worst thing ever...that makes birth even more uncomfortable is the needle in your hand and the blood pressure monitor that is squeezing your arm every 3 minutes (especially when your are trying to focus on pushing a watermelon out of yourself).
Anyways.... Once Mike and Emma got me settled in the hospital bed, they left to go eat breakfast and play a while before it was time to for me to start pushing. He needed to still drop her off at my friends house before heading back to the hospital so the plan was around 10 am he would be back to be with me and Charlie would be here around 12 pm.
With the Pitocin starting I couldn't believe how fast the contractions started. They were intense! I got a Epidural and started to feel somewhat better. I wish I could be that person that does it all natural but it just wasn't in my mindset. 
So, I texted Mike and told him he needs to come now. I felt like things were going way faster then what we thought and he needed to hurry. 
The Dr. finally came in around 9:00am and checked me. I was about 6 cm now and she let me know she was going to break my water. 
Everything was just so unbelievably fast!!!
Mike finally got there.
Now, I don't want to keep focusing on the one thing that made me upset with my experience but it made a huge impact on why Charlie was born at 10:18 am and not around noon like we thought.
I had mentioned to my Dr. that with Emma's birth, when the Dr. broke my water Emma's heartbeat stopped. We struggled to get it back and it was a good few minutes (felt like hours) till we heard it again. The nurse assured me that that wouldn't happen this time and there was nothing to worried about.
My Dr. broke my water and then disappeared...with everyone else that was in the room. I am talking absolutely no one else in the room at all except of Mike and myself. And you probably guessed it... no heartbeat.
 Are you kidding me!
I quickly was trying to move around, trying to do everything I did when this happened with Emma. We pressed the nurses button a million times (it felt like). Finally Mike ran down the hall and found my nurse.
She found Charlies internal heartbeat and I felt so much better but I was totally shaken up now.
I didn't understand why everyone left so quickly after I had just told them that there was a problem with my first labor.
The nurse told me to start pushing with the next contraction...which I was having trouble focusing because I just spent what felt like a hour trying to recover my sons heartbeat.
I eventually got myself together and started pushing.
I think I pushed maybe 10 times and he was out.
 Charles David
10:18 am
7 lbs 12 oz
19 3/4 inch.
 My friend dropped Emma off at the hospital..and took a few pictures for us.
First Kiss
 Car ride home
 Meeting his furry sister

Overall it was a good experience. Being induced wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I did get nauseous and sick this go around but that comes with all the different things being pumped into me.
Charlie did come out a little bruised. It was such a fast labor that I am not surprised that it wasn't worse then it was.
He also has a ton of peeling skin. Being in my belly for a long period of time that tends to happen. 2 weeks later now he still has some peeling spots but nothing like the first couple days.

It has now been a little over 2 weeks since he was born. We have had 2 doctors appointments and he is doing really well. His discharge weight was 7 lbs 4 oz. and he now weights 8 lbs 9 oz. He eats like a champ! Definitely different them Emma.
Sleeping is pretty normal. He wakes up about 3 times a night to feed. I am pretty tired in the morning but seem to be much better after we all take our afternoon nap.
Emma is still adjusting to her new brother. She is such a stinker so its been a slllow process.

We are so in love with our family of 5. Yes, I do include my dog in that number. This is my last baby so I am taking in all the cuddles I can at this stage.

Friday, August 5, 2016


Today was Charlies due date. 
He is still living comfortably....while I am not. 

I cant believe I made it to 40 weeks.  I thought for sure his birthday was going to be 2 weeks ago. I see my doctor on Monday again to be checked. We will probably scheduled a inducement if he hasn't come by then. Being induced is not really what I had in mind. I wanted him to come naturally because I have heard a few story's about people having a rougher labor and they blame it on being induced.  
I am just ready to meet this little man so he needs to come already! 

Emma of course wanted to have a sticker on her belly... I didn't even tell her to put her hands on her belly  haha

Saturday, July 30, 2016

Baby #2 & Life

As promised, I have a scruffy photo update of my belly. It was 95+ degrees outside and we just came in from playing outside so don't judge me. 
39 weeks and 2 days 
I cant believe I made it this long. I thought for sure I would have had little guy already. 
I am to excited to have him and have my body back so I am getting antsy. 
The main thing that I really miss is playing with Emma. Not being able to get on the floor and roll around, constantly saying "watch out for mamas belly" or just sleeping comfortably. 
At my last doctors appointment I was 2 1/2 cm dilated and this Monday I will be checked again. 
It was almost better that I haven't had him yet. The friend that is going to be watching Emma was on vacation last week so that would have been a little stressful. I had a backup plan but my mind wouldn't have been at total peace. 
So, the plan is...I go into labor and we head to the hospital (I am once again Group B positive) Mike will drop me off and head back home with Emma. In till I am ready to push, he will be with her and then drop her off at my friends house. He will then pick her back up (hoping that it was only 3-4 hours) and then they will come drive to me or go home depending on what time it is. He will be with her the rest of the time that I am needing to stay in the hospital. 
So, yea, that's the plan.
Probably wont go like that at all but I can hope. 

Moving on to what Life has been up to. 
 Cami has been really keeping us busy! 
I truly forgot what it was like to have a puppy again. 
Bolo was 6ish when he started to calm down, and he was really sick for about 2 years before he passed when he was 11. With Cami being 2 years old, she has been really keeping us on our toes. She has a couple things that I have been trying to break her of. I need to keep in mind that she still has only been with us for 2 weeks so everything comes with time. 
She seems to be scared of men. Barking hysterically when we pass one on our walks. 
She doesn't seem to know the "walk on the leash" manners. She tends to walk in front of us which causes a lot of tripping over her. I have yet to see if she likes other dogs. When we pass by one she is barking and trying to get to them. I don't think she would bite them once she gets to them but it sure seems she wants to when we walk by. She tends to be very mouthy. Never biting but I don't like my arm constantly in her mouth when we are playing. She is a herding dog so that's how they work.  We have been putting her in her kennel every time we leave the house. The first time we left her I stood outside to listen to see if she was destroying the house...and she was. Scratching at the door and trying to get in front of the blinds to look out the window, so we kennel her for now. She has a very loud, high pitched bark when she plays. Like ear piercing. With the new baby this needs to stop! 
Other then all that she has been great!
She now knows sit and shake already. 
She is a very loving girl. Loves to be pet and cuddled with. 

 We spend a lot of time outside in our back yard. Emma loves her pool and sprinkler. Cami chews her bones and plays fetch. Its nice to have a fenced yard so I don't have to worry about anyone running away. I just wish it was a PRIVACY FENCE! 
I have been really annoyed lately and I feel bad about it but I am so tired of always feeling like I am being watched. 
Our neighbors are just so close to us. 
The older couple is very nice but always in our business! 
There is not one day that goes by that she does not open her window or come out to talk to me. 
I just want to sit outside with my kids and not have to dread a 30 minute conversation.
The woman has come out and actually told me that she enjoys watching us. 
I don't want to be watched!
That feeling is horrible. 
Now that we have Cami, it reminds her of her dog. 
Oh geeze! 
Now its even more coming outside to give her treats. 
And as of now we don't let Cami stay outside alone because the neighbors fence is too low and she can jump over it so its even more talking.
 I am hoping that I am just hormonal and this feeling will go away after I give birth. I feel bad that I dread her so much but I really don't want to talk to her multiple times a day. 


We have new renters that just signed a lease for our house in Ohio.
Our last disaster renters made me so nervous with anyone moving in now so we are keeping our hopes high that these people are normal. So, when the property management company told us that were would be 5 people living in the home it made me kind wary. It is a married couple, both her parents and her grandmother....and 3 small dogs :/
I think to myself that the carpet is already shot. It needs to be torn out anyways so the dogs cant do much more damage. 
They wanted to consolidate their living expenses and help grandma out so they decided to sign a 2 year lease at the house. 
I am just happy that there will be females in the house because maybe they will clean a little. 
Our fingers are crossed. 

 That's really about it for now. 
Hopefully there will be a baby update coming in the near future!