Too Many Tears

   I'm over all the bad news. I'm over all the tissues that I've used in the past 4 days. I'm not going to get into everything because I don't want to relive it but I will say Sheba did have another Dr. appointment today, because ... Yes I was right, she developed a major ear infection. (Stupid Dr.)  I called the Vet Clinic on base for a appointment yesterday, and after a hundred answering machine pick ups, someone finally answered the phone. She told me the first available appointment would be on the 24th. I would never let her suffer that long so that would never work. I had talked to someone that has a older dog in our hotel, she gave me a card of the Vet she uses, so I called them.
   I took her in today and had a long talk with the Dr. about all of her problems. She has developed a bad cough also with this lovely ear infection so those were the main reasons we were there. It came down to the Dr. saying he has a strong belief that there is something wrong with her brain. Could be cancer or something along those lines. He asked me a questions about her daily life and all the answers were no. She doesn't really know who I am anymore. She doesn't really have the like or want to walk around anymore. She isn't really happy anymore. She really has no clue what going on. He looked at me and said that it is almost time. He thinks 6 months or less. I held back the tears at this point till I got to my car.
   Sheba had to stay though. She is having blood work done to see if it is OK to be put to sleep for her ears to be cleaned. One of them were actually closed, so in order to clean it, its better for the dog to be sleeping because of the pain.  It's been only 5 years but she has made such a huge impact on my life. I really couldn't see not having her around. I just hope I'm not being selfish and keeping her around to suffer.